Shake the Frame

(Source: imlivinglouderdreaminglonger)

With the turn of every season the Earth sheds her past and pulls on a new day with the solstice or equinox.  She strives forward with the change of season, leaving her past behind, but like all life, the past always seems to poke its way through even if just for a day; late snow storms in April, rain showers in July, 80 degree days in October and warm sunny days in December.  Unlike all other life the Earth moves forward leaving behind the memories of seasons past, whether they had been good or bad, and continues renewing life.  The earth deposits the fallen leaves, melts the snow, evaporates the rain for a later day and soaks in the sun’s glowing rays.  Whether those around her are ready or not, the Earth, starts her new beginning without a question and showing signs of new life with budding flowers, warming rays, a rigid frost or a winter dusting.  But leaving the past behind is not quite so easy for man.  We run back to find what we have left behind, we thrive in the “glory days”, we return to old lovers, waiting and chasing the “one that got away” and we mourn and question the loss of loved ones.  I am guilty of being human and making all mistakes that are human, but I vow from this day forward to be more like the Earth.  I vow to approach my life with changing seasons, to never become stagnant, to never find complacency in mediocrity and to always accept and nuture the next solstice or equinox of my life.  “The first step toward getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.”

Happy 15th Birthday Tyler Dallas Piel! It’s hard to imagine you at this age because you were truly God’s angel. You are my inspiration and I will always miss you.

Sitting here today I begin to think about my own legacy and the legend I will leave behind.. Last time I wrote (to myself) it was to discuss that I would my leave my legend by my creations, this still stands true. I also want more from my life. I am a perfection that perpetuates my shortcomings from my fear of expressing my eccentricities. I am weird to others, but I believe I am the normal one. What is truly weird is hiding your eccentricities and not expressing who you truly are in life. No person should ever be afraid to be themselves or ever be afraid to express themselves. I have feared this for years now.. I have been afraid to be myself and afraid to show everyone that I have my own quirks. I can honestly say that I was afraid of not being like by my peers for my point of view. But sitting here in a sports bar in Tempe, Arizona waiting to hop on the train to Phoenix to attend the Arizona Diamondbacks game I vow to never hide my quirks or my or idiosyncrasies (yes I realize they are virtually one in the same) again. I am who I am and my life is my life, it hasn’t always been beautiful and it wasn’t always pretty, but it’s been exciting and I would never trade it for another. These words I will stand by - Live the life you love, Love the life you live..